The Gift of Insecurity

Lately I have been battling with a gift that I was given in my childhood that I would like to call:

INSECURITY

IT is a gorgeous bombshell of a woman, dressed to the nines wearing the gorgeous 5″ spiked heels I can no longer wear because of a running injury.

IT is my good little girl who is about 6 years old with those amazing pigtails and perfectly clean dress who is telling me that if we don’t live up to our professors standards we will fail and then we will be NOTHING…NOTHING I TELL YOU!

IT is that quiet voice that very nearly inaudibly whispers…you suck, you can’t do this, you are stupid, you are a fake, a phony, a big fat (yes fat) lie of a human.

Why do I call this a gift?  Because when my insecurity rears its ugly monster of a head I get to talk to it and tell it where I think it should go.

I am still a bombshell…cause I am rockin’ these curves like no other.  Don’t believe me?  Just ask my husband!

I am a damn genius.  I didn’t get into this PhD program because I am stupid. So, it is ok to send what I got to my professors because they don’t want me to fail.  They want me to succeed because when I succeed I make them look good and they all want to look good!

I don’t suck…I am amazing.

I am not stupid…I am brilliant.

I am not fake…I am the realest I have ever been.

I am not fat…I am a big, voluptuous, curve of a woman.

So take that INSECURITY…and SHOVE IT!

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About Melissa Bird

Melissa Bird is a passionate feminist who has turned her education in social work into a career advocating for children, women and their families. She is a fierce believer in preparing women for leadership roles in politics and has a wealth of experience working with policy makers, community leaders, and other stakeholders to improve access to reproductive health care for women, men and teens. In 2006, Melissa became the Vice President of Public Affairs for Planned Parenthood of Utah where she quickly took a struggling political organization from mediocre to powerhouse in just a few years. Melissa has written and passed into law six pieces of legislation that aim to help disadvantaged homeless youth find shelter and women and their families obtain unfettered access to reproductive health care. A spirited public speaker, Melissa derives great joy from speaking to groups of all sizes about social justice advocacy, reproductive health, women’s empowerment, and fundraising. Melissa has presented workshops at many conferences throughout the country such as: Planned Parenthood Federation of America-State Public Affairs Network: New Public Affairs Staff Orientation—Washington D.C. Planned Parenthood Federation of America-Innovations & Generations Conference—Seattle, Washington Troubled Youth Conference—Snowbird, Utah Child Welfare League of America National Conference—Washington D.C. U.S. Department of Health and Human Services, Substance Abuse and Mental Health Services Administration, Center of Mental Health Services Conference-Collaborative Approaches to Successful Transition for Children, Youth, and Families within System of Care—Dallas, Texas Melissa has played many roles throughout her life including preschool teacher, professional lobbyist, university professor, non-profit executive, wife and mother. Throughout her life and her career, Melissa has always held a deep conviction that she is here to empower others in order to improve the lives of women and children throughout the world.
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