Eff Sh*t Up Friday – Metallica comes to mind

Lately I have been thinking a lot about my motivation. What motivates me? What gets me going? What keeps me engaged in the quest for justice? Metallica. Metallica motivates me. For my entire teenage life Metallica was often the only thing that kept me going. I was a struggling kid in a pretty violent household…

Monday Mayhem – I am angry at America, still

I have been reflecting back at where I was at this time last year. My sadness was palpable. I was worried about what would happen under the current administration. It is worse than I thought it would be. In today’s Monday Mayhem, I take a look back at my words. 11/19/2016 I am broken, I…

Monday Mayhem: Affirmations of Badassery

A few months ago I asked four of my dearest friends to, “think of five words that I offer women”. I don’t know why. I think I was feeling particularly insecure about myself and wanted to know that I was still inspiring to other people. I was at a strange point in my life. I…

On Burning Your Village then Building it Back Up

A few years ago I lost several dear friends.  Not to death, or illness, or accident. Just…lost them.  I did some things, they did some things, we did some things. And then before I knew it we simply weren’t talking anymore.  Many of them didn’t even tell me to go screw myself.  The whole thing…

The Gift of Insecurity

Lately I have been battling with a gift that I was given in my childhood that I would like to call: INSECURITY IT is a gorgeous bombshell of a woman, dressed to the nines wearing the gorgeous 5″ spiked heels I can no longer wear because of a running injury. IT is my good little…

The Truth

All week I have had this scenario running rampant through my brain: You Can’t Handle the Truth I was angry and allowing one woman to have complete control over my emotions for days and days.  Swirling in the knowledge that I know the truth, I am tired of the lying, and if this battle would…

Violently Happy…but not in the creepy way

I am training for a half marathon that is taking place in 3 days.  This entails a lot of running.  When I say a lot of running it means in the last 3 months I have logged over 170 miles of running.  This is crazy.  I was not a runner.  I used to smoke 2…

Into the Abyss

I am drowning…I am drowning in: Shame     Guilt     Anger     Fierce HATE     Insecurity     Fear I am trying to pray. I am trying to be more love centered. I am trying to be kind. I am trying not to run away. But… All I want to do…

The Cone of Shame

My good girl went on a rampage last night. She was feeling totally out of control and she threw a hissy fit more impressive than a 3 year old hyped up on sugar and soda pop. This morning my wise woman gently whispered in my ear, “Cry if you must but look outside yourself to…