Monday Mayhem – Infertility, heartbreak, revolution

On August 16, 2010 my wife of 6+ years left me 5 hours after I had been inseminated. I was DEVASTATED. I crumpled into the fetal position on the kitchen floor and didn’t move for 3 days. While I was down there I prayed in earnest for the first time in my life. Dear God,…

Eff Sh*t Up Friday – My Struggle as a Stepmother

It is a compulsion. A calling. A drive. The need to change the world for the better. The impulse to improve the community for everyone. It thrums through the blood in my veins. It resonates down deep into the tenor of my soul. I have never not heard the siren song of the call for…

Eff Sh*t Up Friday – Gun Reform Y’all

I am a gun owner. I am not ok with what is happening in America. Something has to give. This month my 7 year old son came home terrified about getting shot at school because he had just gone through an “active shooter drill” in his classroom. I didn’t know what to say, comparing it…

Lost in Translation (Stepmother)

I remember the moment I found out he had children. It was night, I had been drinking and fucking around on Facebook. I thought I had found his Facebook page. His profile picture was of kelp so I wasn’t sure if it was him or not. It said he was married. I clicked on her…

The Grand Canyon

Lately I have been seeing myself taking a head first dive off the rim of the Grand Canyon and instead of sprouting wings (like I thought I would) my body is in a free fall, flailing itself from one rock ledge to the next. Bam-Ouch. Thwap-Ugh. Smack-Aargh. Each full throttle smattering on the ledge reminds…

Stop and Smell the Roses

Tonight I planted the very first Mothers Day gift I have ever been given-a miniature rose tree that K bought with her own money after she saw me swooning over it at Costco.  It was very nearly dead when she brought it home to me hoping that I could bring it back to life.  While…

Speaking About Passion

Over the last two years I have transitioned from being a professional lobbyist and university professor to a full time stay at home mother to three children.  This life change has led me to challenge many of the personal ideas that I had about myself as a woman and has sent me on a life…